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It really is amazing how quickly time passes when you’re not looking. I’ve accepted that I’m just biding my time. Until what I don’t know, but I am. I’m not happy. I don’t know why I thought this change would bring so much more. In reality I traded one set of problems for another. I refuse to believe that is all life is about – moving problems around.
Right now I can’t shake my depression. I haven’t found something that just sparks my interest enough to shake it all up. I started backing away from some of the negative influences, but instead I just feel worse. I’m just so afraid to get close to the people here because I don’t know who is really a true friend.
I can’t give up. I won’t give up. I just wish I could find that happy place again.