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I find myself giving advice these days and yet not following it myself. I went to an event tonight, thought I looked fantastic, just to see a picture of myself and hate it.
This is not me. I don’t know why I’ve let it go on for so long. How can I expect anyone to fully accept me if I don’t accept me? I make a lot of excuses, and I get along just fine, until a day like today reminds me that I’m really not happy with myself. This needs to change. I need to change.
I want to be completely happy again, not only partially happy, or happy until I see a picture of myself and remember why I don’t like pictures.
This is not me. This does not make me happy. I need a real change, right now. Not later. Now.